You must never forget that all forward movement and progress starts with the steps you take and decisions you make moment by moment and minute by minute.
You don’t always ALL OF A SUDDEN forget all the pain and hurt that other people caused you. Sometimes it works that way, but many times, you have to choose, minute by minute, moment by moment, DECISION BY DECISION to forgive the people that hurt you. When the memories of past hurts come, release them, and release the people. Release the pain. Sometimes forgiveness doesn’t rush out of you like a flood but like a slow trickle, and then a steady stream…and THEN it becomes a river.
You don’t always ALL OF A SUDDEN become a boss at managing your time. Sometimes you must choose minute by minute that you will not scroll on Instagram for hours at a time, you will NOT watch another Youtube video. You will not keep checking your email every 5 minutes because you have work to do. Time well spent and well managed is a sum of decisions that you make moment by moment.
You don’t always ALL OF A SUDDEN become this healthy, wholesome person who never again struggles with addiction, comparison, gluttony, *insert other horrible habits here*. You start with the decision moment by moment, to love yourself, to heal yourself and to do better. You commit to forward movement. You may not want to take that next step forward, and you may not feel any different 5 steps into your journey, but you must trust that you are moving forward, and that this advancement is better than going backward.
The ironic thing about process is that often times when you commit to it, and are surrendered to it, and are consumed by being diligent in it…. those things you wanted to happen ALL OF A SUDDEN become your reality. When you relax your ironclad grip on your expectations of when things are supposed to happen, and just commit to being the kind of person you need to be when those things happen, ALL OF A SUDDEN becomes your reality.
When those things happen, the things you been waiting for, praying for and preparing for, you appreciate them all the more because you know that you worked hard to get there. You literally had to become a different person. You’re not willing to throw away what you worked so hard to get. You cherish it. You steward it. You maintain it. And you help others live at the level you’re now at because you have mastered what once mastered you.
Don’t be fooled. Process is a beautiful thing. It doesn’t always take forever, and it doesn’t always happen all of a sudden. But when you decide to commit to forward movement, and you are diligent in advancing, don’t be surprised if things start accelerating, and moving and shaking, and breaking, and forming. Process is crazy. Process is beautiful. Process is confusing. Process is blurry. Process is clarity. Process is frustrating. Process is necessary. Process is life.